Strong’s Hebrew: H539 – 'âman (אָמַן)

Transliteration: 'âman Pronunciation: aw-man'

A final letter to my Grandma.

God is the master of the 'plot twist.' He used Moses (a murderer), David (an adulterer), and Paul (a persecutor). My 'reckless' past is just the raw material He uses for a redemption story. My mistakes don’t scare Him, and they don’t cancel my calling."

While others can lean on their own "stability," I have to lean on Him every single hour just to stay upright. That constant leaning creates an intimacy with the Divine that "stable" people often never find. It is damn hard.

Sometimes, the weight is too heavy and the muscle "tears"—this is when the reckless choices or the "mean" comments happen. In weightlifting, a torn muscle needs rest and a doctor. In my life, that "tear" needs Grace and Medicine. It doesn't mean I’m weak; it means the load was temporarily more than any human could bear.