I am Bipolar and often HATE HATE that about myself because I am not like others I feel so deeply. I mean I feel like there’s no in between at times. I hate that I am so young and will be on multiple medications my entire life just to be a normal functioning person in society. Living with Bipolar disorder adds a complex layer to faith that many people don't have to navigate. Most people experience emotions like a radio playing at a reasonable volume. For me, that volume knob is often quite literally ripped off.

Le pido a Dios que nos guíe y nos llene de su paz.

Retaliation is just a confession that someone else has more power over your emotions than you do. When we 'match energy' with a toxic environment, we aren't protecting ourselves—we are surrendering our character. I had to learn that Agape love isn't a feeling I have for a difficult coworker; it’s the discipline of refusing to be 'easily provoked.' It’s the strength to stay quiet when the world is screaming, knowing that my worth is already set by the One who is patient, kind, and thinks no evil toward me.

Growing up as a 'parentified' child, I was conditioned to manage everyone else's mood to keep myself safe. I carried that trauma right onto the psych unit, letting a toxic system have total access to my health, my sleep, and my peace. If you let everyone have access to you, don't be surprised when there’s nothing left for the people who actually matter—like your family, your partner, or your own soul. It’s time to stop being a doormat and start being the steward of the life God actually entrusted to you.

We often treat our bodies like they are our own to run into the ground, but Psalm 24:1 reminds us that everything belongs to the Lord. If your body is screaming for air, why are you still trying to give your 'last breath' to a job that doesn't care if you can breathe or not? It’s time to stop being a people-pleaser to a system that doesn't love you back and start being a faithful caretaker of the life God actually entrusted to you.